the hardest goodbye : the greatest hello

Have you ever felt like your heart is suddenly a million miles away from you? This is exactly how I feel tonight. For anyone who doesn't know how this feels, you're missing out. Ironic, right? This goodbye that you experience is one of the hardest things you ever have to do... but the perfect bliss of that simple "hello" after a long drought makes it all ever worth while. It's what keeps me looking for that silver-lining every morning as the next "hello" grows nearer.

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I promised myself this time that I wouldn't cry. It wasn't going to be that long, right? It was that feeling of "going back to how it usually is" is what was making my eyes fill with tears. I had felt comfort and familiarity that I had waited for, for so long--which that same thing was now walking towards the gate.
Escorted by me.
The hardest goodbye. Embraced with a hug and lined with salty tears. I walked away as the streams came down. I didn't think I would be like this--at least not this way.
I promised myself this time that I wouldn't cry.
I suddenly stopped. Purse in hand, I slowly turned around as I saw my precious friend walk through the gates. I hated goodbyes, especially the hard ones. I started walking towards an exit. At this point, any one of them would have worked. I clung my arms together as I braced myself against the cold winter breeze. Seeking warmth was all I wanted. Not just for skin. But for my soul.
Silently driving. Nothing to entrude or distract me and my thoughts. Even the passing cars seem to be respectly quiet as I drove in multiple lanes of quick-paced movement. An hour and a half did'nt seem as long as it normally does. I guess my mind was busy just like the traffic.
Silent.
Walking through the doors, I knew my parents could see what I was feeling.
My heart was on my sleeve.
I looked at myself in the mirror. My eyes were as a pink blush wine with a display of saphire blue. Why couldn't my eyes always be this color?
Minus the pink.

Charging my phone... again.

I thank God for the hard moments within those goodbyes; because I know that there will once again be the greatest hello.
It's really amazing to sit back and look at the relationships you have in your life. Every. Single. One.
Thus that topic will bring you upon a second post.
If destiny decided I should look the other way, then the world would never know about the greatest story ever told.